The rope that I hold… this is to those who’s hearts are moved by the words I write that they perceive are soaked in a curable pain. I listen to u all… but I find that beyond the surface of some of the basics I relate to u, ur far from able to comprehend certain teachings I’ve expressed that are by no means passing fads of the soul for me. Many times over u call me to ur view of the man history calls Christ. To begin, I must say as a Muslim I’m not allowed to step on the faith of others in a sanctimonious manner. If I were to do so, it would nullify my own professed commitment to my view of my Lord God, whom u constantly read me call for general purposes The Maker or Creator. First, my anguish in life isn’t because I’m a Muslim, and thus far from some shining truth that had I accepted would of lifted all my worldly spiritual woes till I parted this world and returned to be with Jesus whom u call the son of God, Ur savior. I don’t know if u’ve noticed through my writings, but although I have no formal education I’m far from unlettered or read. I didn’t happen upon a faith that shaped my whole world view in a weekend in the county jail. I went to catholic schools as a kid. In many venues growing up I’ve learned and payed attention more to Christian beliefs and dogma than many Christians I meet today. All over this world there are those who profess ur faith and creed who commit crimes and violations against humanity so vile yet real, “ regular God fearing church folk” will wave the twisted details away with all its true education with a song and a prayer. I’m not stepping on ur way… i understand some truths can traumatize even the toughest hearts. Rape, murder, cannibalism, torture, child molestation etc etc etc are u to say these things are not committed by follows of the cross? Muslims are painted as scary war mongering bearded psychopaths who marry 13 yr old girls in bunches and blow themselves up for their desert god named Allah and expect 70 virgins in paradise for doing so. Guess what ppl… some of these views are true. There are twisted evil men who wear our religious wear as a business uniform to commit savagery in this world. Along with them so too men and even women of every known faith group in the world. I can go deeper in areas of true horror than ur willing to go. I’ve met serial murderers in prison who went to church on sundays. U just don’t get it. My way… what u don’t understand. I bow my heart before no man on this cursed planet. With no racist intent I say My lord is no white man on a canvas picture with blue eyes being nailed to a tree, post, or cross. Do u know what anthropomorphism even means? Humanizing such an awesome concept as the creator God so he can me more mentally and spiritually accessible to men of limited spiritual vision. I’m sorry. I would rather lose all I’ve ever known than worship a created thing rather than the true creator of the heavens and earth who cannot be painted or made into some statue to be venerated in some prayer building. I made an oath… I shall fight the worst of myself always in the rememberance of the one who made me… and I will neither call upon, hope in, or fear with my mortal soul any created thing in creation. I can show u from ur bible ur lord Jesus teaching u this in the our father. Every line is dedicated to the Almighty alone and not towards who u praise after every thing u do his messenger and living word Jesus the massiah Ur hearts tremble… but so does mine when told that the creator alone is not enough for me. All over the world in every race and language we share an inherent curiosity of our mysterious origin and ultimate destination. It’s a part of our very nature to seek our maker. Islam is the only faith in the world unadulterated and unmixed pointing to pure monotheism alone that invites not just a certain race of proclaimed holy people such as the children of Israel but the whole of humanity to worship the One God alone. All other ways invite the worshipper to share The Creator’s right to be relied upon and worshipped alone with Demi gods and human, angel, or ethereal spiritual intersessors. We worship them to bring us closer to the unknowable God they say. We cannot approach such a great force without them. The first commandment says what? Thou shall have no other gods before me! Did ur lord who u call me to, ever command me to abandon this commandment that’s taken to come from the Almighty himself and instead call him my lord, forgiver, and provider? I won’t argue…u just don’t understand. I’m not here to convert u… it’s not my affair. To all of us belongs the choice of where we put our hearts. Mine is in something ur way however morally noble benefitted me nothing in although I do hold respect. So… please, let this be the last time I’m treated as a lost soul needing divine light.. because if u’ve not heard a word I ever wrote about my crimes and transgressions before coming here, u don’t see at all that that light is already with me. I’m alive, sober, and stronger in many ways than I’ve ever been. I’ve helped more ppl in private, both here and abroad, for reasons having nothing to do with this petty world than u’ll ever know….it’s ok though… God does. Peace. Pack Redfeather.