The fire’s real behind the veil…

If I lay down with every excuse, then I’m just like them…truth be told, I would be separated from them. I’m not pure… but I’m not blind either… on all sides of my ego there’s a roaring inferno… calling me by every name I’ve ever been known by! Calling me to everything I’ve ever loved or wanted to live for!…. what?!…judge not?!… fools talk… for once u’ve seen the hole-filled field, would u not be anything but an imbecile not to judge where u place ur feet as u advance? Are u to go trusting every appearing devil with a pretty face or sad tale to gain ur sympathy? How ill is ur estimation of the true nature of the soul! I hate this world! The nature of it! People! …Me! My own eyes! My hands!… tongue!… yaa Allah! I am completely dependent on u to guide me past my own self’s blind hunger… it’s constant reaching out for what it cannot keep! It’s willingness to cast u away for an unattainable dream! Yaa Allah! I am a fool! I am weak, though compared to these people I am strong! The conman, the harlot, the innocent firebug who can’t help but to burn his own dwelling down to appease his own deadly curiosity, separate me from these people… how can I help those who don’t even acknowledge who u are! Or what this life truly is?!… I’m in a rage…. for I am alone! I speak ur words but I am unheard!…so please help me…

Published by Pack Redfeather

I am a walking contradiction of traditions some say. An African American and Native American Muslim poet with a personal life history as violently turbulent as a Storm. A visionary from the bottom of life’s social barrel striving to share the hope found in the light of faith through sometimes dark but real poetry. I’m a former member of the Bloods street gang, former serial bank robber, and both federal/state prison convict. I live on my mother’s tribal reservation of the Leech Lake band of Ojibwe in Minnesota.

2 thoughts on “The fire’s real behind the veil…

  1. Beautiful, honest writing. You have my utmost respect. Please continue to put out poetry such as these. I’m a fan now!

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    1. I appreciate the comment. My ways of viewing things are alien to the area in which I live. Although, I’m sure spiritual conflict of any sort is common in all faith groups or religious paths. As a Muslim commanded to go one way, but living in a world that directs modern minds in the consumeristic opposite direction, it’s very hard to find balance… yet I continue to try. Peace

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