Women lol… How does Pack really feel about women. Yeah, I’m different than most here. I’m starting to be questioned by women as to why I don’t date, take numbers, or want what all these other guys seem to want from them. Uhh, are u gay or something Pack?? Hahaha, no I’m not gay… I find some of these women as attractive as some amongst them find me. I’ll tell u what’s going on the best I can so u know what’s going on ok. I’m a man. I love women. But they, like a couple other things I’ve sold myself for are my greatest weakness. When u gaze upon the beauty wrecklessly of how God himself made them many things can happen. Remember what Hannibal lector said in silence of the lambs? How do people covet?… They just don’t think of things to covet, but they covet what they see. The things they see everyday. God made somethings very beautiful and tempting for his own reasons. To try us by… Even the tree in eden’s garden wasn’t evil or ugly.. It was VERY beautiful.. But also forbidden. Just because it’s there doesn’t mean it’s for u. Will u listen and obey? Trusting that if u deny urself what he told u ur not to have that he’ll give u better than what ur eyes and hearts see and are longing for? I left Islam a few times because I chose the tree over trust and obediance. I nearly died over an obsession to a woman once. While I bled and called out to her to help me, she turned away and left me to my fate. Alone. Im my shame I invoked the same God I had abandoned for this beautiful woman of flesh and blood. This false god of mine whos touch, voice, and smell lured me into casting the words of my creator away. It wasn’t the woman’s fault though.. It was my own. Just like u can’t blame that apple tree in eden. God tries us by everything here. Everything, even the beauty we find in eachother. I want a woman who’s going to encourage me forward on this road of mine. Who reminds me of my duty to the one who made me. A woman who loves and honors Allah more than she’ll ever love me. If she does this…all me and my children through her can do is benefit. There’s nothing wrong with u women who have asked me these questions. But Whatever male beauty, both physical or in regards to my personality God has given me is for this woman I’ve prayed will come. It’s not to be exploited and ruined by anyone…including myself because of some impulsive feelings that follow looking at a pretty face, supple body, or smooth and calming voice. I hope this has answered ur questions. Peace be upon u all.

Published by Pack Redfeather

I am a walking contradiction of traditions some say. An African American and Native American Muslim poet with a personal life history as violently turbulent as a Storm. A visionary from the bottom of life’s social barrel striving to share the hope found in the light of faith through sometimes dark but real poetry. I’m a former member of the Bloods street gang, former serial bank robber, and both federal/state prison convict. I live on my mother’s tribal reservation of the Leech Lake band of Ojibwe in Minnesota.

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