Trent reznor said it best…” everywhere I look…ur all I see… just a fading…f’ing reminder..of… who I used to be!”….hope keeps my eyes busy some days…I try and mind my own road…but guy’s know all about “ the calling” though…it’ll make prisoners jump over penitentiary walls and risk bullets just to get to town. One of my favorite sayings from an old poem…water water everywhere and not a drop to drink. What’s hard and irritating is the moral tennis match of this situation. Following nature and striving to follow divine scripture. How many a good strong man insanely jumped ship only to drown listening to the beautiful voices of the sirens on the island’s shore? I’m smart…very perceptually keen if u know what I mean, but I’m still just a guy… hate it sometimes. Many of these women haven’t a clue about anything greater than what flavored vodka or blunt wrap they want to try. Well…I don’t smoke or drink. The Dating pool for men like me is sized down to the size of a rain drop because Muslim men don’t really” date” lol…oh well…onward forever forward pack. Keep saying that magic word of urs “ no no no!”…and don’t go crazy hahaha…women!