I understand it now… yeah, I see it all very clearly… it’s not u… it’s not even me for real for real… it’s what I’ve committed myself to… where I’m determined to get to… if I choose to get off my path and approach u… and if u hear me out and ultimately decide yes, and take me with u…ull lead me away from my goal… I can’t have that… not that ur some evil temptation worthy of 50 thousand curses to a pit of hell-fire… nah, ur good. I see u… my eyes find u beautiful… maybe on the inside u shine too in many ways… but my road’s going a different way….and I gotta keep going with it…so…with a quick glance, I look at u and sadly smile…then I turn back to the way I’ve been walking…mumbling and shaking my head.